grr.. my dad jus ruined my otherwise wonderful day..
what did he do?
he REFUSED to let me go for supper with my frens.. and its like the last supper we will have before school starts.. come to think of it.. i haven't gone for supper with my frens this whole hols.. but the old man claims that i ALWAYS go for supper!
"why must u always go for supper?"
"just tell your frens its very late you cannot go.."
PUI! it was only TEN plus den! and he asked my why can't i take a bus to supper instead of using the car.. so i said i would take a bus and den my frens can fetch me home! and at that blardy moment.. my mum who was supposed to be sleeping suddenly woke up and said
"SIAO.. so late take what bus!"
KAOS.. we are in SINGAPORE LAH! how dangerous isit.. and i'm how old already.. i noe how to take care of myself lors!
seriously.. i can't wait to start working and be financially independent so that i can move out and live a life away from my parents.. i'm starting to understand and appreciate carrie's theory - that when u live away from ur parents.. the relationship will improve becos with lesser interaction.. there will be lesser conflicts.. but obviously my parents are not going to be very happy if i move out before i get married.. so it sucks..
this is not just a small matter of not being able to go for supper.. its a matter of my parents not being able to let go and how they always want to be in control of my life.. i noe im not even an adult yet but i'm alr 20.. and they are still treating me like a blardy kid lah.. they nvr let me go out once with a peace of mind.. each time i leave the house in the afternoon i will definitely get some shitty remark like
"going out again?!"
"not coming home for dinner again ah.."
"why can't you just stay home.. home got needles poke u ah.."
notice how accusing these remarks are.. i always make it a point to try to come home for dinner becos my sis is hardly home for dinner and they'll be eating alone by themselves.. but no.. they NEVER appreciate the effort.. they only remember the few times i stay out for dinner with my frens and when i tell them im staying out for dinner.. they will come up with some crap remarks on how i nvr come home for dinner.. i actually turned down to have dinner out with dee and wei and eugene and kiny becos i wanted to be a good girl so that i can stay home for dinner then go out for supper.. but NO! they nvr notice THAT effort!
what's with this stupid dinner issue thing anyway? why must we always be home for dinner and eat dinner together at the same table.. we cannot watch tv and eat dinner.. we cannot read newspaper and have dinner.. we must sit together and just eat dinner.. and if i like talk about my day really happily or excitedly.. my dad will say "why u always have so many stories to tell wan.." like i blardy make up the story to show off lidat.. (this happened just now during dinner when i was telling them about the stupid water filter interview.. and its not the first time i've had this reaction..) it's seriously quite fucked up lah.. if you want no interaction during dinner.. why bother to have dinner together?!
sighs.. im so pissed off now.. the more i think about it the worse i feel.. bah.. dun wanna tok abt it anymore.. i dun even feel like sharing the fun afternoon i had today with dee, wei, eugene and kiny.. maybe tmr i will tok abt it..
nite peeps..
This is Me.
