i kinda chanced upon my old blog last week..
and out of boredom.. i started reading through my entries..
and i came across this entry that i had type three years ago..
Wednesday, 17th March 2004:
"well well.. i'm 18 already.. how time flies.. 18 years of my life has gone by.. unfortunately.. i sometimes don't feel any different.. sometimes i just feel as though i'm still 16.. 15.. or even 13.. the same childish thoughts.. same childish behaviour.. yet i noe the difference is there.. maybe just the task ahead of me.. at 14.. it was to do well in streaming.. at 16.. the big 'O's.. and now at 18.. obviously itz the bigger 'A's.. however.. there's also the choice of the path i wanna take in life.. which.. i still don't really have a clue about.. oh well..
niwae i was reading this article in Her World yesterday.. it was about Superbitches.. and my.. i'm inspired.. there was this quote which goes something like this.. "instead of shunning the term (bitch) placed onto you.. why not endear it with qualities others wished they had.." haha.. i read it and i was like wow.. so zai.. i wanna be like that too.. being straight forward in ur opinions.. being firm to get things done the way it should.. even if it offends others.. as long as ur conscience is clear.. there's not need to bother.. yet it does not mean one should be nasty to ppl all the time.. unfortunately.. i still have a long way to go before achieving their "status".. haha.. like duh right.. the respect they command frm ppl.. at least frm me.. is realli.. wow.. hopefully i can be like that next time..
niwae goin off now.. pretty exhausted frm today's activities.. tata!"
it's quite funny that 3 years later.. i can actually kinda rem the article mentioned above? and i tell u i was really REALLY inspired.. and i guess maybe that's why i can be such a bitch that i am today.. and when i say bitch.. i don't mean it in a bad way.. :)
and in relation to the fact that i had turned 18 then.. i guess turning 21 now is just another milestone in my life.. and like that when i turned 18.. i really don't feel any different turning 21 now.. i suppose i've matured in a certain way but deep deep down inside i guess i just want to remain a kid..? it's scary how time flies.. it seems almost yest that i was still mugging like shit for my 'A's.. and now i will be mugging like shit for my exams in time to come.. i guess one thing did not change.. i'm still as slack as ever during the normal sch term.. HA! and that's an understatement i think..
anyway i think it's quite fun to occasionally post some of the posts that i did when i was in JC.. brings back some fond and not so fond memories.. heehee.. but of course as i look through it.. more than half of the entries are rubbish.. (not that those i post now are any better.. but still..) ok.. i'm just rambling.. :P
ignore my nonsense.. heh.. night!
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