the wake

went for Lena's wake today..

i guess her death didn't really hit me till i saw her lying in the coffin.. it was heart-breaking.. i was expecting to see the same beautiful girl that i remembered but... she looked so different.. so frail.. so unlike her.. i couldn't help but tear when i looked at her.. how could fate be so cruel to take her away when she had everything going on for her..

when we went into her room.. all her medals were carefully laid out.. her photo albums.. the little scrap book she did when she was young.. and many photos of her smiling radiantly at us.. i looked around.. seeing the usual girly stuff in one corner.. her books laid neatly on the shelves.. it seems as if she would walk into the room anytime to have a chat with us and show us around.. when i looked up to her wall.. i saw this magnificent photo of her leaping in the air.. she looked so strong.. so graceful.. i couldn't help but whisper "wow.." but it's so sad to see what she has been reduced to now.. thanks to one fateful accident..

life's really not fair..

i can only take comfort in the fact that though her life was short.. it was a fulfilling one.. she has probably done and achieved much more that what many people can only dream of.. and she has enjoyed the love of her family, friends and team mates.. what more can one ask for..

sigh..

rest in peace, Lena..
you will be in my prayers..