pondering

is there really such a thing as true love?
i used to think so..
and i hope i will continue to believe in it..
if not..
life will be pretty miserable..

although i may appear to be alrite with whatever that's going on..
there are times where i do wonder at home..
how can you guys do this?
i may never be able to say this to you in face
but..
all the things that you have done..
those sweetness.. those thoughtfulness..
were they all your sincere gestures of love
or were you just showing off?
i may never understand..

not to be be mistaken..
i still love you guys very much..
as a friend..
i will give you guys my support no matter what happens..

and to my dear friend..
i will always be there for you..
the pain will go away one day..
and then
you will get to see your rainbow.. :)